I'm OK...

I'm OK... | January, 2019
Personal Blog


Wow...it’s been a different few weeks. Work is busy, family is busy and I feel a bit behind.

I haven’t been able to book more meetings at my clinic because I’m working, which is important. Their lack of flexibility is frustrating, and if I don’t get those appointments met...I will be kicked out of the system?

There is such a fine line between work, family and self care...it’s tough balance.

I want, need to work, and yet I feel I’m not meeting the commitment to my recovery or my children.

So, I have had close friends ask me...how are you doing, really? Which is such a breath of fresh air...and I know they are genuine.

I always say, I’m ok. It’s a new day. It’s a re-start.

Then each day seems to start with a new challenge, and I question if I can face it? Can I take on one more fight? One more unexpected battle?

I am ok, I tell myself, and I just take it on.

Am I kind to myself? Not always. I feel like I don’t do enough for others, and I have dropped the ball with family. Which is unacceptable.

I’m torn between feeling thin and feeling to heavy... when I look in the mirror, I cover my eyes.

I know I’m not the only one, and so I’m not embarrassed to say it.

I have new demons that have surfaced, and I didn’t realize what a huge part they play in my life.

It’s time to be good to me, and take time for me.

The Only Way Out Is Through...

I'm OK?

 

 

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My name is Penny and my blog has been written to take you on my journey of living with an eating disorder. To share my strength, hope, courage, tears, sadness and heartache, and my wishes for a better tomorrow. I don't know how my story will end, but the words 'I gave up' will never be printed. I am choosing to battle for my life an yours! I hope to spread awareness on Eating Disorders and Mental Health Issues.