“You’re braver than you believe, stronger than you feel,
more resilient than you think, and more beautiful than you ever imagined."


May this Eating Disorder Awareness Symbol keep you grounded in knowledge.

Penny Wolk-Jones

Do you or someone you love struggle with an Eating Disorder?

Are you feeling lost, alone, numb, powerless and defeated?

If so, take comfort in knowing that you are not alone in this struggle, and you never will be again. 

Welcome to my world.

My eating disorder has haunted my life for almost thirty years, and has been my best friend since I can remember. It has taken me years of severe self harm, to hit rock bottom, both physically and emotionally for the second time in my life, and realize that once again, hospitalization was my only hope for recovery. I was beat down, and I was exhausted. I felt so alone, and really thought my only hope to stop this pain inside was to commit suicide. I remember that moment well, because I knew my illness had taken a turn for the worse, to the point that I was scared for me. I broke down, crying, wondering how my life had to come to this, and when did lose all control? What stopped in that moment from ending my life…was that I really didn’t want to die…I just wanted to stop hurting, and I didn’t have the tools to cope.

So, I reached out for help. I cried out for help to anyone that would listen to me, and it felt like the longest cry of my life.

It was terrifying to admit that I could not beat this eating disorder on my own, and that each day, I was letting it kill me just a little bit more. It is important that you know that you are not alone, and yes, I will repeat this over and over. Once I allowed my voice to speak, it spoke volumes, and it has given me the courage to write this today.

I hope that you will follow my journey. There is always hope for a different tomorrow. There is inspiration, motivation, understanding, courage, happiness and help to be found right here.

It is a safe place, with no judgement, and a place to let your soul be free.

You are doing the best under the circumstances…together, we can do better.

It’s not about me tonight...

06 Dec 2018

It’s not about me tonight, and it will be short and sweet.

I was feeling a bit off today...

12 Sep 2018

I was feeling a bit off today (like most days), and then it hit me.. my need to say something...

All you need is within you…

25 Aug 2018

Although it broke my heart in many ways, I knew my health was more important, and I decided to reach out for help.

If you are struggling today, always remember,

that you are not alone, you found me.
You matter, don't ever give up, and now...

we will fight together.

 

My name is Penny and my blog has been written to take you on my journey of living with an eating disorder. To share my strength, hope, courage, tears, sadness and heartache, and my wishes for a better tomorrow. I don't know how my story will end, but the words 'I gave up' will never be printed. I am choosing to battle for my life an yours! I hope to spread awareness on Eating Disorders and Mental Health Issues.